Social Critique- hope for forgiveness, hope for change

This is a somewhat unconnected post to the overall purpose of this blog, but I felt it was necessary to express some of my observations since I originally started this blog. This entry is mainly a personal reflection and I by no means am trying to offend, if anything I am trying to share my opinion to make amends. 


Friday- May 20, 2011
It gives alone a clarity of existence to follow ideals within any and every action and word- to follow alone compassion, knowledge, responsibility, and respect shapes every motivation of desire, every interaction within oneself and with others. There is not much room in this world any more for philosophers, I'm not sure if there ever was. Look at the lives of philosophers, saints, poets; put within a framework of their ostracism, tragic deaths, emotional turmoil, devotion to thought, misunderstandings, and differences. It can only be reasoned that within one's life, if devoted to philosophy, one will be mocked and ridiculed, and yet as an intrinsic element of my own existence I can testify to an inability to live in any other capacity except one devoted to thought, to philosophy. 


But it seems that ideals exist as a trite notion to the self-centered, self-indulgent culture of my times, where so much devotion to thought and conversation remains dedicated to one end- 'How can 'I' perceive my own assumptions on the others around me without engaging them in sincere conversation? What can I assume from their physical gestures and momentary decisions?' It only exacerbates a privy of not only self-worth, but self-assertion that one's assumptions are wholly sound. It is closed-mindedness to an exponential degree. And yet, even so, even with my prior willingness to engage in earnest conversation with anyone (as I do not assume or judge myself, I likewise do not engage or enforce those notions on others) yet now, I am constricted with the anxiety, and yes quite possibly fear, that my conversation will be taken not as two (or more) individuals enriching one another's lives, but rather as an enticing game to which others coerce me to speak  so they can covertly repeat what I say in order to perpetuate a national facade. So, without a desire to facilitate deceit, i remain silenced by my inability to compromise me ideals, because the vast amount of attention by no means equates with my ideals of equality, mutual respect, compassion, responsibility, and knowledge. 


So I find no remedy to my existential crisis of the mind, I cannot and will not perpetuate a facade, not will I respond to false conjectures as to assumed interpretations of my thoughts, not when I have such distant attachment to the repetition of surface level assumptions. So, due to my budding infamy, instead of remedying my solitary confinement, I have in twisted irony perpetuated it. My life seems at times to be themed solely as a cosmic joke of ironies best played tricks. My personal philosophy was adopted to be my personal life as a hoax of repetition and others voyeuristic attention to me, while I continue not in self-absorption, but rather a devotion to my ideals executed by my devotion to others thoughts and opportunities for education. I came off as pretentious while in reality I wanted only to share my perspective for the possible benefit of others, and instead I got warped into a game of fallacy, a walking bevy of 'entertaining' (and demeaning) responses of others for their own selfish indulgence- a distraction from their own sense of self and to propagate conformity with others into one theme of immediacy and cruel assumptions. Perhaps it is people's fear to face up to their pride and deceit, to choose to not admit truth because of timidity and fear, and to not own up to harsh realities because it is not 'fun' to think about, and it is social territory unfamiliar. 


Perhaps at the root is a fear of change. Change is accepted when the masses accept it, change is shunned and an ostracizing intrusion when it does not appeal to what the masses comfortably conform to. How did this become acceptable? How have me moved so far beyond ideals into trite, hedonistic cruelties- it is a gang mentality and a dangerous game to play. I remain heavy depressed by my inability to rectify matters- I would have so much preferred now to be 'un-known' because I frankly never was and still am not. Only now people know my face, possibly common gestures, and a few automatic phrases of cordiality and exchange out of my attempt to try to not stigmatize my social acceptance any more than I already have. It's difficult to hear people audibly disagree with themselves within moment to moment statements. 'I will say as others have said, than tell myself and others to Stop, but only for the next moment to continue repeating rhetorical reoccurances as a cyclical game of empty meaning. I suppose, more than anything, I see no point to it, no benefit for myself or others outside of momentary distractions for the sake of conformity. Even in saying this, I realize this is only my interpretation and I falter in being true to my ideals, and am open and willing to discuss and change my mind, and I hope I didn't offend any readers. Also, I don't mean to come off as self-righteous, I'm no hero, no moral saint, no more confused than anyone else about how to do right by myself and by others. I still do enjoy the company of genuine people, without subtext, with earnest acceptance, and with a true opinion and full life of unique experiences to share. Can't wait to start celebrating differences again, or at least that is my hope. 

Overview to Social Perspective/Theory

The basis of my social theory stands on the tenants of equality, collaboration, communication, appreciation, consideration, objectivity, incentive, compromise, and history. If all the tenants of my social perspective are enacted, then inter-personal to cross-cultural relationships will alter for faster, easier communication and a broader, better-rounded standard of living. It is through technology and communication with others, by others, and for others that an equal ground can be achieved for all. In using the tools and knowledge of man-made devices (i.e. technology & science), there will be an improvement of communication, collaboration, and the natural desires of mankind.

                My philosophical tenant is based solely off of the perspective that man’s utmost desire is to know. In acquiring knowledge in some capacity or function, whether it be studying classical texts or just knowing of other individuals i.e. having friends, is the utmost desire of human kind. In order to acquire such knowledge there must be some form of communication with other individuals- these individuals can be alive (i.e. family, friends, political leaders, pop artists, sport stars, etc.) or dead (i.e. past philosophers, poets, critical thinkers, deceased loved ones, etc.) The function and performance of communication depends upon time, space, interpretive community, and language development. The quality of communication can be marked by published documentation (anything published in some capacity, since it than can exist beyond the time and space of the writers’ individual lives) or it can be marked by how it affects the listeners of an individual speaker (the talks between two lovers, the memory of a quote by a deceased loved one, a motivational speaker- i.e. Martin Luther King, John F Kennedy, a high school principle, a pop icon.) The effectiveness of communication can be marked by the influence of those reading/listening.

Since man’s utmost desire is to know and be known, it is the desire of each individual to be remembered, thought of, and considered for what they say and do, and to be remembered and accredited for the knowledge they already possess. Everyone enjoys being credited for what they do know, even if they know just one other person. Everyone enjoys being appreciated for what they do know, on a small or large scale. It is the act of verbal and physical appreciation of others that seems too often ignored in today’s society. Affective communication will be marked with some kind of response, whether it be an answer to a question, a change in demeanor and personal outlook, or a change in how individuals communicate inter-personally and cross-culturally.

While today’s society functions off of hierarchical roles, it is actually an illusion of socially constructed roles. These roles are important to enact for the safety and protection of others, but the roles are actually an illusion of power dominance, since our society only functions off of interpersonal relationships well intertwined. It is the interpersonal relationships that enact these roles as socially acceptable. In reality, if people are alive, there is an equality of the value of individual lives that is the true tenant of existence. If people took the perspective to appreciate and respect others solely based off of the value of life, than the illusion of hierarchy could be unveiled as the false societal construction it is.

Future blog posts- this list is a most objective outline of blogs to come- but each other these     categories will be expanded into sub-categories in the future

Necessities:

Society:

Cultural Constructions:

History:

Communication:

Collaboration:

Education:

'fear is of death'- Personal Speculation on Death

ok, bottle of water near by, just finished smoking a cig (I'm planning on quitting once i have a new career), and i'm ready to at least share my perspective on death, for what it is worth, take it or leave it, it is just my perspective.

So, I believe that all that happens when we die, is we enter into awareness, awareness of everything that exist. I believe we are able to see and hear and feel and know everyone's perspective that has existed or does exist, we become like God, or we become one with God.

Matter is neither created nor destroyed.

"In physics, energy (from the Greek ἐνέργεια - energeia, "activity, operation", from ἐνεργός - energos, "active, working"[1]) is a quantity that is often understood as the capacity to perform work. This quantity as the contained energy can be assigned to any particle, object, or system of objects as a consequence of its physical state. Different forms of energy include kinetic, potential, thermal, gravitational, sound, elastic and electromagnetic energy. The forms of energy are often named after a related force. German physicist Hermann von Helmholtz  established that all forms of energy are equivalent - energy in one form can disappear but the same amount of energy will appear in another form.[2] Energy is subject to a conservation law. Energy is a scalar physical quantity. In the International System of Units (SI), energy is measured in joules, but in some fields other units such as kilowatt-hours and kilo-calories are also used.

Any form of energy can be transformed into another form. When energy is in a form other than thermal energy, it may be transformed with good or even perfect efficiency, to any other type of energy" - from wikipedia

So if matter is neither created nor destroyed, then everything must be  a displacement of energy. We are alive, we are forms of energy. I think we are unique, the entities in which we now live are unique and un-repeated forms of energy that will never happen again. We only have our one life to live as uniquely this form of energy.

But when we die, as far as I understand it, DMT floods the brain and this is the last experience everybody has when we die. I think, when we die, DMT is transferring us into an awareness of everything else with DMT in it, we just become aware of everything, everything that is real, everything that has or had DMT in it.

So, I think we create our own heaven or hell on earth, by limiting ourselves to being so locked into our own perspective, and not really listening or thinking about other peoples perspective. I think it is in listening to other people's perspective, and really thinking and considering what they say, and why they say it, and who they are, that we become closer to heaven on earth. But i think heaven or hell can only exist on earth. So, if we keep destroying the earth, and keep fearing each other, and fearing the apocalypse, that we will achieve that apocalypse because we never took the time to really consider what we are doing, or who we are, as a whole. 

As a collective part of the whole earth. We are all small little forms of energy, that will have a beginning and end, but that energy does not end, it continues on, and will become something or somebody else that is unique. So, the more we are aware of eachother and the world, the closer we will get to being aware of what causes us happiness or sadness, or emotions in general. Through knowledge, we learn to not be so scared of eachother. 

Through communicating our ideas, sharing, and collaborating, and really considering eachother's perspective, that is how we become aware of the reality we now exist in. We only have one life to make a difference for the better good of all forms of energy. If we use our energy together, and pay attention to how we are using our energy, we can work for the greater good of everyone and everything. But everyone has to do it together, everyone has to try a little. 

Communication is a form of energy, technology makes this form easier. science and technology can also make our lives easier and longer, and who doesn't want to stay alive to keep experiencing and learning all we can in this one life we have to live. Life is now. Yes, death will eventually happen, but that is not the important thing, it is the life we are living right now that is important. Time and energy don't stop, but if we keep just thinking about how we can best get ahead as singular entities, rather than thinking about how we can best get ahead as a whole, we will all go to hell. There are many ppl I think that are already living in hell, and the only way to get out of it, is to stop thinking about one's own self so much, and go out of the way to help other ppl out. Say hello to other ppl, get to know them. Know their name, know their face, recognize they are alive and part of the whole collective. We are all just humans, we are all just living right here, right now, on earth. We can all do what we can in this one life-time to make things better for everyone in this life-time, and in the life-times to come, for our children too. But not just our genetically given children, everyone's children.

"Collaboration with the Choir" - 2010

It goes something like fuck, the drums and the sweat

of a holy revelation, the pulpit of regret

in all the hard-pressed, misplaced

guilt and frustration summed up into

two scenes in twenty-four hours.

I hummed the serenade of the over-practiced choir

and contemplate on what is paid,

the price of desire, fixated on a love and hate

relation with myself, and delve into

a preacher's raid on how to aspire

to a perspective much higher, but

last night and this mood didn't sway

my desire for more than a coin collected

exchange of god power.

I need a beat that could hold me

to one place where two days weren't liars

of one me in two moods, guilt and desire.

I need a unified scene to be both sinner and saint.

I need to re-focus my senses, where reality

of moods can meet and I can be me.

New International Version (©1984) I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself.New Living Translation (©2007) As for me, it matters very little how I might be evaluated by you or by any human authority. I don't even trust my own judgment on this point. English Standard Version (©2001) But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged by you or by any human court. In fact, I do not even judge myself. New American Standard Bible (©1995) But to me it is a very small thing that I may be examined by you, or by any human court; in fact, I do not even examine myself. International Standard Version (©2008) It is a very small thing to me that I should be examined by you or by any human court. In fact, I don't even evaluate myself. GOD'S WORD® Translation (©1995) It means very little to me that you or any human court should cross-examine me. I don't even ask myself questions. King James Bible But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's judgment: yea, I judge not mine own self. American King James Version But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's judgment: yes, I judge not my own self. American Standard Version But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's judgment: yea, I judge not mine own self. Bible in Basic English But it is a small thing to me that I am judged by you or by man's judging; I am not even a judge of myself. Douay-Rheims Bible But to me it is a very small thing to be judged by you, or by man's day; but neither do I judge my own self. Darby Bible Translation But for me it is the very smallest matter that I be examined of you or of man's day. Nor do I even examine myself. English Revised Version But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's judgment: yea, I judge not mine own self. Webster's Bible Translation But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged by you, or by man's judgment: yes, I judge not my own self. Weymouth New Testament I however am very little concerned at undergoing your scrutiny, or that of other men; in fact I do not even scrutinize myself. World English Bible But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged by you, or by man's judgment. Yes, I don't judge my own self. Young's Literal Translation and to me it is for a very little thing that by you I may be judged, or by man's day, but not even myself do I judge, Geneva Study Bible {3} But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, {4} or of man's {b} judgment: yea, {5} I judge not mine own self. (3) In reprehending others, he sets himself for an example, and anticipates an objection. Using the gravity of an apostle, he shows that he does not care for the contrary judgments that those have of him, in that they esteemed him as a vile person, because he did not set forth himself as they did. And he brings good reasons why he was not moved with the judgments which they had of him. (4) First, because that which men judge in these cases of their own brains is not to be considered any more than when the unlearned judge of wisdom. (b) Literally, day, after the manner of Cilician speech. (5) Secondly, he says, how can you judge how much or how little I am to be made responsible for, seeing that I myself who know myself better than you do, and who dare profess that I have walked in my calling with a good conscience, dare not yet nonetheless claim anything to myself. Nonetheless, I know that I am not blameless: much less therefore should I flatter myself as you do. People's New Testament 4:3 It is a very small thing that I should be judged of you. The essential matter with Paul was, not that the Corinthians should judge him a faithful steward, or that he should be faithful in his own judgment, but that the Lord shall count him faithful. Of course, with factions at Corinth, some disparaged Paul. Wesley's Notes 4:3 Yea, I judge not myself - My final state is not to be determined by my own judgment. King James Translators' Notes judgment: Gr. day Jamieson-Fausset-Brown Bible Commentary 3. it is a very small thing-literally, "it amounts to a very small matter"; not that I despise your judgment, but as compared with God's, it almost comes to nothing. judged . of man's judgment-literally, "man's day," contrasted with the day (1Co 3:13) of the Lord (1Co 4:5; 1Th 5:4). "The day of man" is here put before us as a person [Wahl]. All days previous to the day of the Lord are man's days. Emesti translates the thrice recurring Greek for "judged . judge . judgeth" (1Co 4:4), thus: To me for my part (though capable of being found faithful) it is a very small matter that I should be approved of by man's judgment; yea, I do not even assume the right of judgment and approving myself-but He that has the right, and is able to judge on my case (the Dijudicator), is the Lord. Matthew Henry's Concise Commentary 4:1-6 Apostles were no more than servants of Christ, but they were not to be undervalued. They had a great trust, and for that reason, had an honourable office. Paul had a just concern for his own reputation, but he knew that he who chiefly aimed to please men, would not prove himself a faithful servant of Christ. It is a comfort that men are not to be our final judges. And it is not judging well of ourselves, or justifying ourselves, that will prove us safe and happy. Our own judgment is not to be depended upon as to our faithfulness, any more than our own works for our justification. There is a day coming, that will bring men's secret sins into open day, and discover the secrets of their hearts. Then every slandered believer will be justified, and every faithful servant approved and rewarded. The word of God is the best rule by which to judge as to men. Pride commonly is at the bottom of quarrels. Self-conceit contributes to produce undue esteem of our teachers, as well as of ourselves. We shall not be puffed up for one against another, if we remember that all are instruments, employed by God, and endowed by him with various talents.  all of this blog post was directly copy and pasted from, they deserve all the credit for this post: http://bible.cc/1_corinthians/4-3.htm